I am doing enough.

I am so thankful for General Conference this weekend. All the talks were good, but a few really touched me personally, like President Uchtdorf's talk on Sunday morning.
http://www.byub.org/generalconference/

If I was uber cool ( though I would use a Germanish word in honor of Uchtdorf) I would just add a link and say go here to watch it, but I still don't know how to do that, so you get the whole ugly url.

Anyway, I struggle often with feeling that I don't do enough in the spiritual aspect of parenting my children. Not being born a member, I wasn't raised with the example of how to do certain things. Certain things are a given, like going to church every Sunday and holding FHE (fhe because it was an answer to a prayer and I will never forget it) but others are harder to remember. Like having family prayer daily. I have tried and tried to remember to do this, even enlisted the help of my children by saying that whoever reminds us to have family prayer gets a piece of candy upon us actually praying. I have it posted on my fridge "family prayer" so I won't forget.

Still forget.

I will hear things that life long member families do, or read something on line that brings on a surge of guilt and thoughts that go along the lines of "I should be doing that".

Case in point, I was looking for something to print off for my kids to do during conference. I usually have them write the speakers name, a sentence of what they thought the talk was about, and have them count the number of times that speaker says a certain word. Then we pause between each speaker (love DVR) and talk about what they got out of each talk. We also always have doughnuts on conference Sunday. But when I read what some other families do, I was overhwhelmed. I didn't even think in this vein, let alone do anything about it.

I had no idea that some members prepare for conference by holding certain FHE's the week before or praying certain things in the coming week, or things of that nature.

Preparing for conference weekend up to a week or more before? It would certainly highlight the experience, but I didn't even contemplate it.

Hence, more guilt.

This is just one tiny area, just one small example of all the ways I often feel inadequate to teach my things of all things gospel related.

I pray continually that Heavenly Father pick up my "slack" in the spiritual area for my children. It is not that I don't want to do more, quite the contrary. I just don't even KNOW what to do.

Then on Sunday, I was listening to Uchtdorf's talk. Something he said made me start down the guilt path and I was thinking things like "I don't do enough, will my children suffer for it" etc.

Then Uchtdorf says "To all those who have not been life long members of the church,"

Ok, I am listening.

He went on to say that God needs our unique talents and abilities, and I was left with the thought that even though I may not do as much as my friends or neighbors, I do enough. I do enough for my children. As long as I am doing my best and always trying to improve, I am doing enough. Heavenly Father will give me what I need to parent my children, and I don't need to worry that I am depriving them of spiritual guidance with my ignorance.

Thank you President Uchtdorf. Thank you Heavenly Father.

And for those of you who may notice at what time this was posted, give me a break. I woke up to feed Corrine, this was on my mind, and since the house was quiet I thought I would take advantage of it. I am going back to bed now.