WARNING: This is a whiny, complaining post.
There is only one of me. And I am doing the work of two people. Which is hard enough most of the time, but December almost has me on my knees.
Well, I am there, a lot, praying for help.
I am trying to keep the holidays how my kids have come to know and expect them to be, and I want to do that, but it is really hard.
You know that scene in Father of the Bride, where the father is going bonkers in the store,taking out the "superfluous" buns in the bag, still in his too small out of date tux?
I am starting to understand why someone would be pushed to such extremes.
Today in my daughters school I almost had such a moment. But I was able to contain my reaction and remain socially acceptable. Barely.
I was sitting in a meeting for the musical Payden was going to be in, the MANDATORY parent meeting that I found out about 2 minutes before. (I had been counting my good fortune to have gotten off slightly early and have some time to get something done when the phone rang and Payden told me to get there. NOW.) I had tried to pay the fee before the meeting, only to be told they were not accepting payments until after the meeting. (Read: long line to wait in.) I was sitting impaitently while the lady read the information on the form sitting in front of me. (I CAN READ.)
This is a huge pet peeve of mine. If you have new info, then say it, but don't insult my intelligence by reading something to me that I have in my hands.
Anyway, she informs us that we will be required to sign up for 2 volunteer "opportunities". I heaved a huge sigh, and just about jumped up and shouted " I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ELSE!"
Seriously, I was THAT close to doing that. In front of everyone. I had had it.
I had just learned on Friday that Ninny needed two costumes for her day care/ school Christmas performance that was 6:30 on Monday. I had thought that her performance would be during the day and I would be excused from it.
I know, that sounds awful, but really, I don't have time. Plus, the daycare keeps doing that, having things during the day and "inviting" parents to them. (Basically making us feel guilty for missing things. I WORK, that is why she is there during the day. I can't just hop over and see her. I am not at home, I am WORKING!)
Add this to choir performances, band performances, parties, get togethers, and the ever long list of things I am trying to do and I have just about had it.
So I just about had myself a father of the bride moment, a hot dog bun moment. I am so glad I didn't.
On my list of things to do tonight, after attending the performance, making sure Ava has the gift she needs for the white elephant thing, a snack, book, and blanket for school, the teacher gifts are prepared, dinner is made and cleaned up, scriptures and prayer, bed time ritual, a trip to the dollar store, working on some more Christmas gifts, I am going to squeeze in some yoga.
Cause I need some major de stressing. And maybe a good cry.
2 days ago
4 comments:
It's going to get better. You are doing a great job and a great work. Hugs. It is not easy to raise a family, and then to add on doing it solo, but you get up and you do it, one day at a time. You are amazing.
Wow, I feel like your comment one one of my recent posts...I wanted to laugh and cry all at once for you. I have felt that way too...different because I am not in your shoes, but a familiar feeling.
I too despise preschools (in my experience) having parent involvement every three or four months...I don't want to come see a program until graduation, even then, keep it short! I also agree that most parent meetings are pretty mindless.
You are amazing, and in my prayers.
You are an incredible woman...your girls are so lucky to have you!
Boy can I relate! Sometimes there is just too much stuff packed in! All we can do is pick and choose which stuff we want to do and leave the rest behind. I haven't volunteered one day in Caleb's 1st grade classroom. When Logan was in first grade I went in weekly. We just can't do everything! :)
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